For once, just once, I want to be all you want.
Even if it only lasts a day, I just want to be the only one.
I’m not happy anymore.
I’m not sad anymore.
I’m not mad.
I’m not annoyed.
I’m not upset.
I’m not feeling anything.
For the past week I’ve been numb.
I haven’t cried when I should have.
I haven’t been happy when I get good news.
There’s just nothing. I don’t understand.
Really annoyed that my doctor doesn’t know why I’m bleeding but at least some good news came out of it! :/
Now to clean my room, go for a walk with Brooke, shower, pack for tomorrow, and sleep soundly so I can go to school then be in Chris’ arms tomorrow.
7:40am and I wake up feeling like someone has run over my ovaries with a bus.
In so much pain I want to cry. :/
I do love Chris, alot. :)
He treats me the way I could only ever wish I would be treated. It’s amazing.
I love how he cuddles with me even when we’re with his family. It’s nice.
I could never imagine losing him again, having him in my life is like a fairytale to me.
Oh Tuesday couldn’t come quicker. :)
Now to sleep.
I hate sleeping alone. ><